Dear Srila Gurudeva
Radhanath Swami Maharaj,
I feel myself completely unqualified for the mercy you shown on me by accepting me and connecting me to the glorious brahma madhwa gaudiya sampradaya. I and my devotion are utterly insignificant compared to devotion of all the stalwarts in our parampara and I am immensely humbled but grateful and fortunate to be given chance to be part of this parampara.
I commit myself to represent you properly as an insignificant attempt to repay what you have given to me.
I beg your empowerment to accomplish this task which is so difficult for my unruly and unholy mind.
Recently I read whatever is against the vedas is a sin in an ordinary sense and in pursuance of pure devotional service whatever obstructs it is a sin. I am attached to many things or sinful activities (by above definition) which are obstructions in the path of pure devotional service.
I beg to suffer reaction for the sinful activities I would do as a proper treatment for my rectification.
I pray to remember my faults and mistake while happily accepting the reactions and sufferings. I pray and beg to get determination to at least then purify my heart and overcome those attachments.
Recently I heard your class and after hearing you, I decided not to give justifications for anything.
Even externally following this principle has made me introspective to work upon myself than to just pass on the responsibility to others. I beg your mercy to even able to internally apply this principle to the deepest core of my heart.
I thank you for your wonderful discussions on Srimad Bhagavatam. You seem to relish every bit of it. And in your chanting and your kirtans you seem to completely push yourself.
I beg you drop of your love for Krishna and Srila Prabhupada.
Please let me humble servant of servant of your servant,
Yours insignificant servant,
Toshan Nimai Das.
